depression
feeling really sad at the moment. just found out that i'm going to a secondment hospital for my next term for sure, not staying at this current hospital to do my ED term as i'd hoped.It's not so much that doing ED at the 2ndment hospital will be boringly slow at times and extremely stressful when things do happen (cos there aren't much support), I just don't want to leave this hospital that i'm at now. I don't want to leave the orthopaedic ward. Aside from the familiarity with how things work around this place, I like all the nurse, registras, and even the consult registras (well most of them). I actually genuinely like them! It's weird. it's only been 9 weeks, but they actually have grow on me. Of course, they don't know it, cos when i'm at work, i'm always very matter of fact, business like and straight to the point. But deep inside, i've grown attached to them. (it's the same with patients, but again, i don't show it and that's probably why i'm yet to get chocolates from my patients when they're finally leaving hospital. like these 2 pt who'd been here as long as i have, ie over 8 weeks. when they were about to leave, i felt really happy for them but at the same time kinda down...)
Was hoping to stay at this hospital to do ED, so that when i need consults from, say ortho, i can just call them up. that'd be really nice. Even with consults, I kinda know each person's temperament, who i can ask for help without hesitation and who i'd better not trouble. Say with renal and ID, when i call them up, i can just say my name now, without the "one of the orthopaedic interns" bit, cos i've asked for countless consults from the same ppl in the past weeks.
*sigh* better stop now, otherwise i'm gonna cry. i hope i don't cry come 31st of March.
posted by zhinger @ 8:25 pm
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